Oh my!!!!

I have been being a very bad blogger lately, but I have had so much homework!!! I am taking two classes that usually take a whole semester in a 6 week period. I just keep telling myself that it will be over soon (this is week 4), but it is all I can do to keep up with everything. This week alone I have two two page papers, a ten page paper, a 45 minute presentation, three forums, and two case studies to do-aaaaaaaaaaaahh!!! At this point, I have the 10 page paper, two forums and two case studies left. The paper is due tomorrow and everything else is due on Sunday. Not to mention that I am teaching Sunday School for the youth this Sunday and I have to get ready for that, too. Oh, yeah, and Jay is wanting me to read this book about being 'The Leader of the Pack" for when the dog comes. Right now I feel like I am at the back of the pack and they are dragging me along-haha! I do have a point besides just griping. I know that lots of people that read this blog have so many things going on (a few of you have this same amount of homework that I do). I guess I just felt compelled to write about how I tend to stress about things that I don't really have control over. I have a huge problem with this and I just need to remember that this is a sin and I should give it to God and he will take care of me-he has done it before.

I just want to say that I have lots of cute pictures of our new patio furniture, my first tomatoes, new pictures of the puppy, and my house all decked out for the 4th. I will get those up soon. I have a girl in my class that said that blogs are narcissistic (you know who you are :)), so another reason that I haven't been blogging is because I have been thinking about that. I decided that I don't want my blog to be one of those things where I create this mythical perfect life because, quite frankly, it just doesn't exist. I feel very blessed to have the life that I have, but from now on if I'm stressed, I might write about it. If something goes wrong, I might write about it. If I'm about to have a nervous breakdown......well you get the idea. I think that a narcissist is someone that thinks that every little thing that they do is the most important thing and everyone would want to know about it. Well, I think that some of you guys care about what I do-you're my friends and I care about what's going on with you, too. However, I think that if I mess up (which I lately feel like happens more often than not) I can write about it and if at least one person hears about it and they don't do it, well then it was worth putting it out there.

I don't mean to sound gloomy, but I am going through a pretty reflective period right now, and even though it is empowering to learn more about yourself, the road to get there can have some bumps along the way.

This is the Johari Window. It is something that is pretty interesting to me and also something that we are discussing in our classes. Basically, it says that there is open information that we know and that everyone else knows, hidden information that we know but no one else knows, blind information that others know but we don't realise and then unknown information that no one knows about our selves included. I think it's really interesting to try to examine myself and try to bring information from the unknown and the blind to the hidden and open windows. I don't think that everyone should know everything, but anytime that I can learn more about myslef-good or bad-I'm in.